How To Beat The Odds And Hang On During Loss | Lily’s Story

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My name is Lily Knuckles.

My life has been a roller coaster full of ups and downs, twists and turns, and the unexpected. It has never been easy, but it has been good and full of hope and joy even in the midst of the darkest times. When I was 9, my Papa passed away from brain cancer and my little sister went back to her biological mom all in one week. Later that year, my dad lost his job and my mom had cancer.

 As a child, it is difficult to comprehend suffering and loss. It is unbearable watching your Papa fade and become a shadow of the amazing, loving, and kind man he used to be. It was impossible to understand why a beloved little sister was being ripped away and that nothing could be done to stop it.

Growing up, I have had to deal with anxiety, loneliness, and insecurity.

This past year I have watched my sweet Grandma suffer and lose hope due to cancer that has spread throughout her entire body.

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So, no, my life has never been easy. But even in the darkest moments when it seemed like all hope was lost, I kept going. Not by my own strength, because I could never face anything alone, but because of the assurance I have in God and His promises. God has always kept His promises and He has never failed, so I can trust Him when everything seems like it is falling apart. He is still in control. I know I can trust in Him because he is still God and He is still good. He never said that His followers would have an easy life on earth, in fact, He said the exact opposite. What He did promise, is hope and joy because one day I get to see my Savior again. (All of the praise hands!!!)

My favorite verse, John 16:22, says “So also you have sorrow now, but I will see you again, and your hearts will rejoice, and no one will take your joy from you.”

Through all the struggles in my life, I rely on God and the guarantee that in heaven there will be no sorrow, pain or suffering.

Don’t get me wrong, life is difficult and sometimes the pain of loss and struggles is unbearable.

The good news is, we do not have to bear it alone.

I know what my God promised me and what He did for me on the cross. I can trust in Him and His plan because He is in control. I can live with joy and hope knowing I will see my Savior again soon! I can remember my Papa fondly and reflect on the words of his favorite hymn, Victory in Jesus, and know that one day we will worship our God together in heaven. I can trust God and His plan for my little sister because He is good. I can find comfort with my Grandma and cherish the moments I have left with her because my Savior lives.

When life seems to be crashing down around you, remember:

  1. 1. the promise of the cross.
  2. 2. cling to the people you love and cherish every second you have with them.
  3. 3. surround yourself with people who love you and who love God even more.
  4. 4. never lose hope or joy, because our Savior lives!
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Model and Story by Lily



Acknowledgement by Miss Beautymark

LILY!! Oh, sweet Lily…

First of all, I want you to know how crazy powerful and amazing your story is. The fact that you are so young and took the leap to share such a powerful, but difficult, story, is nothing short of strength sweet girl. I am so happy and proud to have been able to know you since (we were both little) and now you are a STUNNING, smart and strong young woman. Thank you for taking photos with me in the rain, and coming to the table with me. You are His bride and I am excited to see what He does with your story.

Much love,






Thank you Britney for sharing this story. I too have suffered many losses in my life and is currently fighting through one now. When I was 2 years old my mom passed away from breast cancer leaving my dad to raise my two older brothers and I while serving in the military. I had a very difficult time dealing with the fact that I was going to grow up with out a single memory of my mom. after my mom passed away my dad separated from God but when I was 9 years old I went to church with my grandma and felt God’s love and peace surrounding me after some resistance. I know now that the trails I have faced has made me who I am and has gave me the strength for my current struggle. In May my dad was diagnosed with stage four colon cancer. The fear immediately struck me that I could lose another person to the thing that I feared most. The battle has been easier now that God instantly reminded me that his peace is surrounding me and will always be walking with me through this plan he has laid our before me.

Rejoice always pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18


I have lost two people to cancer in my life. I know the pain and sorrow. I was angry and frustrated with God. But with women standing up together and helping to strengthen one another with prayer, the pain and sorrow turns into joy. God is so amazing! He brings people to His kingdom. He heals them when their time on earth is finished and welcomes them into His beautiful kingdom. How awesome is that?! Today, I am happy and joyful. My God lives, along with the people I lost.
Now, I am trying to trust God with His will for my life. I am about to go to college and i have no idea what I want to do. I want to do what God has called me to do. But i do not know what that is yet. These testimonies are beautiful and amazing!!!! I love you! thank you so much Brittany! your blogs really inspire me!


Thank you for such a beautiful and touching story.
May God continue guide and bless you always!💐


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